usually after something happens…it’s hard to walk away unless you have closure.  some type of explanation, some type of result, whether it’s good or bad.  we all need it.  this brings me back to the summer of i think 2006..i got back from Asia and started working for my uncle in Cerritos.  i actually used my 24 hr gym membership quite a lot back then because it was on my way home.  so one day i went afterwork i think or i think it may have been a weekend…i would be more proud of myself if i went over the weekend.  anyway, what happened was it was one of the girls birthday and my other friend said let’s go get korean bbq…hmmm…after a good work out, go eat korean bbq?  sure why not! if you haven’t had korean bbq you are missing out because it’s really delicious.  the side dishes are awesome!  ok, back to my story, i got carried away a bit because lately that’s all i can think about…is eating yummy food!  i finally got a chance to weigh myself today and OMG….after eating a lot in NYC for the past 10 days…i lost weight!!!!  how can that happen?  i am now 97.5 pounds! sick…ok…really back to my story.  so i went to grab my purse out of the car and then we left.  after eating and going home i couldn’t find my watch.  if you haven’t seen my watch, it’s my favorite watch in the whole world!  it’s unique because the band doesn’t go all the way around and people always thinking it’s missing or something (Georg Jensen is the brand).  my dad got that watch for me when i was in the 7th grade so i was proud that i didn’t lose it after all those years….and now totally depressed and i called the gym, looked everywhere in my car…still no where to be found.  i needed closure….so the next day, i decided to go back to the gym and look around the parking space where i have parked my car the day prior….and there it was….sparkly (it’s silver) but completely crushed!  i decided to take it home and frame it (it’s in my mom’s garage somewhere) but at least i got my closure.  it’s like finding a dead pet or something. 

well, this weekend i finally got to have closure with my last relationship.  for some reason, it was very hard to let go and i am not sure why i held on for so long because i knew he was wrong for me.  i really enjoyed my time with him and i think i just got used to being with him all the time.  anyway, it ended on a horrible note.  i am not sure how someone can do such horrible thing to another person but it happens (must be karma cuz i used to be the horrible one).  but i guess i see it as a blessing in disguise of finally being able to let go after so long.  although i should probably hate him, i decided to put it behind and move on.  i wish that he would one day grow up and learn to be more considerate.  i am usually friends with my ex’s but i think this may be the only exception.  it was really sad for me to believe he would do such a thing but he surprised me.  i always thought he was a good person somewhere deep down inside but after this weekend, i lost faith…but again, this was the closure i was looking for and i still do believe everything happens for a reason. 

i guess sometimes with time you can have closure too…people let go, forget, forgive…etc.